Today I am 20 weeks! The baby is so much stronger as I am starting to really feel those kicks. Last night was the first time I put my hand on my belly and the baby kicked I could feel it on the outside!
I have a nice round preggo belly now-I need another belly shot for my scrap book! Next Wed at 20wks 5 days we find out if you are a boy or girl. I don't care either way I just want to know that you are healthy!
It's starting to feel very real..I have been disconnected just kind of waiting to see what would happen throughout this pregnancy and for the first time last night I smiled so big when I felt you kick my hand. I'm so in love with you already and I can't wait to meet you in July.
Joseph and Christian are getting more excited. I worry how Joey will handle the transition of a new baby in the house. We have yet to get him to sleep throughout the night (he woke up once last night but was able to get himself back to sleep)Joseph is so very attached to me and I don't want any regression or sadness when he meets his brother or sister. I know that we have challenges in our future that we will need to face when it comes to adoption and sibling rivarly (they are very seperate issues) but I think the better we can prepare Joseph the stronger he will be to deal with these types of issues or feelings. I'm sensitive to his needs and will do the best I can to help him have a smooth transition. It was so cute that when he saw his baby cousin Zaya (she is 12mths) he would feed her a bottle and stroke her face...he was very good with her.
